justrun-.

i'll never make it.

forget it.
i'll never be able to make it anyway.
maybe it just wasn't meant to be.

everytime i get up.
i just fall down into stupid dark holes anyway.

leave me alone.

i don't even know you.
why does everything always end up so complicated?
i can't understand you like this...
why?
whywhywhy.
stop confusing me please?
don't take it out on me...
please.
i'm begging you.
i can't take it anymore.
i don't know what's going on.

i was never in control.
i never did enough.
just the memory brings back so much pain, tears and anguish.
i haven't gotten over it.
i haven't learnt.
i haven't changed.
don't mention it to me,
because it's just too much to handle.

i tried to make changes.
but the heavens forbid me to.
i have to keep on struggling with so many limitations.
now he wants me to do something else...
everything just gets more and more complicated.
whyyyyy.
i want it so bad.

the world doesn't need a bunch of useless protein and blood.
so just kill me.
don't deserve to be here.
especially when all i ever do is let people down.
what have i accomplished?

nothing

it all amounts to NOTHING.

and now?
i just ruined it.
i should've taken better care of myself.
now i'm stupid sick.
can't walk around without feeling like i'm going to drop dead any moment.

useless people should be sentenced to death.
really.
i'm one of them.

i'm sorry.
for letting so many people down.
all your time, effort, money.
gone down the drain.
sorry.

what is life anyway...
just a stupid pulse going through ur body?
getting worked up over school tests and competitions?
failing everything you set out to do?

i don't need life.
so you can have it.
all for you to take...

just
take
it.

[pat]* decided to runaway-.

put on her shoes at [19:38]

and took [20040814] strides

it's the passion that drives you